Sitting in Anirudh's home, Bangalore... All software-walas still sleeping!
I am all set to go and meet the Prema Vidya team. By the mails exchanged, it looked like the team are expecting a 'different' person. This doubt and the experience at the Annual General Body Meeting yesterday, complemented by the several others, cements my doubt - Am I at the right place? Or to be more truthful, Am I the right person to work at this place?
Some of my friends might just laugh off, saying - you are just being modest. But modesty is not supposed to trouble mentally! My life has always been in mediocrity, choosing to do well and show commitment only when it was pleasing to me. And around me, at SVYM, are people who have achieved a great deal all through their life, topping almost everything they did and they did everything with utmost sincerity.
I, on the other hand, did almost nothing completely seriously. I found Calculus by Thomas & Finney more interesting than 10th board exams, Tendulkar's sixes against Akthar and Caddick in the World Cup more memorable than PUC, reading nuclear chemistry more important that preparing for IIT JEE, football and morning jogs more relieving than the sleep before exams at IIT, my nuclear physics project more worthy than any other BTech course and on and on. As a result and as expected, I did nothing that I would really be proud of. I left IIT feeling that the degree didnt mean anything to me and I dont know when I may get that. (I dont regret that) And here I am surrounded by people who have accumulated gold medals and gold medals.
I still stand by the opinion that the degree means nothing to me and knowledge is more valuable, and so I wonder - am I the right person to work at this place? I am just too playful..
-- buddi
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27 - 09 - 2010
PS: I did win a couple of gold medals in school for being named in the football and cricket teams for the inter-house tournaments. Do they count?:-)
