Long after you are gone

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Long after you are gone - DOOMSDAY (03 - 07 - 2008)

Long after you are gone

Long after you are gone
I think I can see you around
lots to talk and share
but it would never happen

Long after you are gone
I think those smiles will still be with me
lots to listen to
but it would never happen

Long after you are gone
on a breezy winter night
with the lights still on
I think I will still feel you around

But I was sleeping for long
for one thing I failed to realise -
Long after you are gone
I wouldn't be there for so long

--buddi
1125
09 - 06 - 2008

A phoney attempt...

At the end of this effort
I have a question for myself
what is it, that has come out?

nothing special at all
all is left to be declared 'a PHONEY attempt'
for I can never understand her
"I am far from where they are"

for this person is bigger than life
she is the leaf with a thousand veins exposed
she is smile on my face
she is the Smile

attempt after attempt fails
all attempts, I make, only DEROGATE her
all of it just dissolves away in tears
all of it just falls apart

you could still question
is that all?
I don't want to be CURT
I just don't want to be

but I knew I would never complete
still I know I would never complete

yet I make this MELANCHOLIC effort
when she is still around,
for long after she is gone -
I wouldn't be there for long

for I want to carry ahead
a handful of memories
a handful of blessings
and a handful of lessons
O! she has showered over me a lot
I don't know what to choose

Need I ask for more
need I live to long for more
I do -
the least I can live for
stand for her reason
stand for her

May all her dreams come true
May she get all she asks for
she will lead a happy life
I know she will lead a happy life

I would tell 'her' memories
Please stand by me
for you define me
for you I live
for you make me live

attempt after attempt fails
this was just another attempt

--buddi
0302
9 - 7 - 2008

The accident and later...

The accident and later...

My transition from a care free human to a careless, out-of-the mind idiot..

I like to test my extremes... I mean it is not all about testing extremes but just doing what I feel like doing... be it when I played football when I had 103F fever, be it when we went cycling some 35km up and down, be it when I slept for some 15hrs in 9days, be it when I walked for 20km when I had nothing else to do, be it when I went into the road race with a damaged knee ligament, be it when I played football immediately after blood donation or be it when I...

This list would never end. I wish it doesn't. This is how I have grown up, this is how I lived. Every bit of accomplishment in my life has been on these lines. It gives satisfaction, a sense of achievement... it gives the will to go for the extra bit. My friends have taught me this. They showed me what it takes to be a winner.

Ever since i met with that accident few people have started telling me that I should n't be like that... but I have always been like that. I know it hurts physically and usually it is me suffers but it rarely matters! At least not at this age...

It has been a strange transition for me.. the transition from a care free human to a careless, out-of-the mind idiot.. it is irritating to listen all their comments and what not. But on the back of my mind I keep telling myself.. these are the people who care, people who love, people who want to help... these are people who build my life piece by piece.. these are the people who make life so memorable... these are people for whom I am a priority... I am not sure whether I deserve alll the love but one thing will remain true for as long as I am live..

I love you all! I have told a few, I haven't told many..

--buddi
2330
4 - 2 - 2009